I'm sorry I constantly want to talk to you. I'm sorry when you take long to reply a text, I get sad. I'm sorry if I say things that might piss you off. I'm sorry if I come out as annoying. I'm sorry if you don't want to talk to me as much as I want to talk to you. I'm sorry if I think about you too much and too often. I'm sorry when I tell you about my pointless drama when you don't really care. I'm sorry if I come off as being clingy. But it's just me missing you.
There comes a point where you miss someone so much that you can hear their voice echo in your head & you can hear the names that they used to call you; the words they used to tell you. You memorized their laugh, their smile & their silly ways. You can also feel their arms around you & you don’t want to let go even though you know that it’s just an illusion. Every time your phone rings, you smile because it’s them that’s calling you. Every time you hear their name, your heart beats a hundred times faster & sometimes, you can’t even breathe. You knew that looking back on the tears would make you laugh but you never knew that looking back on the laughs would also make you cry. And all you would want is to go back in time. Not to the time that you first met, to the time that you were known as nothing but strangers. But no matter what, you’re in denial. You hide your feelings, so no one would know. You put on a fake smile & don’t let a single tear break through. You’re so used to hiding your feelings that you don’t even realize the pain you’re causing for yourself. Your thoughts become invisible. It’s still there, but no one knows. Like a love letter you didn’t show. And you’re hurting no one but yourself.
“I wish some people would get a life..
You might not agree with the decisons of others but who are you to judge? I know for a fact that no one is perfect and that makes YOU also.
So quit being a hypocrite for 1/2 a second and take a look at your own issues.
:) much love, katie carroll.”—