daddy, i miss you so much. i’m sitting here crying right now. not a depressed cry, a scared and i miss you cry. if that makes any sense. i think about how ungrateful i was when i had you in my life. i’m sorry…now that i can never have you back i regret not loving you more. you were the one person who truly loved me. more than anyone else ever could. i try to fill your space, but i realized that will never happen. i miss that smiling face of yours. i try not to let the mental picture of me waking up next to you dead replace the one of you smiling with me. you were truly my best friend. i wish you could come back…even for a day. i wish i was eight again…and i could be with you one last time. i want to tell you i love you. i’m sorry daddy, i’m sorry i’m such a bad person. i’m sorry i’m mean and angry. i just miss you. you did everything with me. you taught me everything. i will never forget your face. it’s all i have left. you keep me going every day. i know you want me to live life and be happy. you loved life and…you loved me.